I have been a total Debbie Downer when it comes to my life as of late. I am not so happy at my new job. I am missing my old coworkers a lot. I hate the new office building I am in, because it is SO uptight and full of the big bosses. I have an assistant who is extremely annoying. My supervisor is a big BIG boss and is hard to work for/with. I haven't had very much client contact since I started at Mental Health. I am having to present a huge presentation about what I have been working on thus far with the grant money. It is basically a job that is stressing me out, and making me semi-miserable. It makes me feel inadequate...and like, 'What the hell am I, of all people, doing in a room full of super important people?'
Plus, I have missed a few days of work last week because I have been so sick. You know? The whole pneumonia/bronchitis/double ear infection/sinus infection thing. Basically, I feel like I am in over my head and that they think I am so much more awesome and skilled then I really am. This feeling of inadequacy is helped along by the fact that I have some very bitter new coworkers who have been with the department for years longer than I have, and who would have killed for this opportunity. They are not so thrilled with me. But all I have to say to those people, and to myself is this...
{20.} Wise Words...
What now biatches?!
So I may not be 100% happy at my new job, but I will learn to love it. Even though I miss my old coworkers I still get to see them at least a couple of times a week. So I work in the office with the BIG bosses...it is just more time for me to do some networking and get to know those people well. Sure my assistant is annoying, but I am only 25 years old and I actually have MY own assistant. That is pretty badass. I may not be seeing clients all day long anymore, but I am getting a program together that will enable me to do so. I am not inadequate. If I am in a room full of these big important people, then there is a reason I am there. Maybe I do deserve it. Yes, I have been super sick (a lot probably due to stress) but I am on heavy duty steroids and antibiotics so I will get better. Lastly, to those coworkers who are not happy for this great opportunity I have, well they can basically suck it. Hopefully, they will climb down from their high horses and deal with this like adults.
This job is an amazing learning experience. I am making excellent contacts and getting killer letter of recommendations from a lot of people. I am in charge of a huge project we are undertaking and this will look amazing on any and all future resumes. I will start being more positive. I will kill it at this new job.
Just watch me.
xoxo
7 comments:
You will freaking rock their worlds. Chin up love. It does get easier (and nothing is ever easy when you're sick). I hope you get feeling better soon and that they love your presentation! You are awesome!
I hope you are feeling 100% soon!!!! Sometimes I think the greatest advice is "fake it till you make it"...my college roomie and I live by it a lot. It's easy to feel intimidated by Life (aaaa I wish I had a job lined up!!!), but if you tell yourself that you are awesome, qualified, and confident (even if you don't believe it at first) that is what you will become! Also, it is super healthy that you can identify your points of stress so you can ANNIHILATE them and go rock at life :) You got this job because you deserved it, after all.
p.s. that quote NEEDS to have "biatch" after it.
every time you talk about your job i think to myself, "dang she's awesome i want to be like her." for reals, you are so cool. haha my sister told me something a while ago and it's always stuck with me it's "you can do hard things" and that's what this quote made me think of. ok rant over! xoxo
"Maybe I do deserve it." No girl you DO deserve it. *hugs* and those people are probably just jealous because they missed the chance to show their awesome and are bitter about it & taking it out on you when they should be taking it out on themselves. Js.
xo!
I totally feel you, I need to stop being debby downer over here as well!
You do deserve all of this. I know you will rock it.
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